maybe its because..

there are loads of things going on my mind right now.

i have this 'insomnia' problem when it strikes to 11pm, so i will stay up until 4am in the morning. maybe its because i slept in the morning. oh well, its fun though. i mean, unless there's no one to chat with me or boredom strikes, i eventually have to let myself to sleep.

i am so jobless, i need to work, like banar wah! i'm like staying at home like every single day and night, i rarely go out nowadays. besides, i'm in my crib, so there's no where to go and no one to go with. sooo jobless, banar tah. thank god, this whole summer makes me happy at some point. i spent my time watching dvd packs, go online on msn and other messengers, and then play games on facebook. look how pity i am? jobless punya pasal.

i miss the canadian families. :p

this part i think i have to elaborate more. so yeah, i've been single for nearly a year now. *sighs. mood swings keep going in my head, sometimes i'm happy if i'm staying single and being alone, but sometimes i cried cos i thought of it. i can't help myself from it nor avoid it. lately, i've been helping some of my friends to solve their problems. boleh lah aku ani, *luan kesiankan orang, kan tolong orang konon, supaya happy balik apa. anyway, because of this emotional thinggy, i got into this and thinking about my past. so at the moment, seeing the one i love liking some other girls, being with other girls, hurts me so deep inside. i envy them cos i really love the boys. i can't sleep, i can't think properly, i just feel so lonely. i want the boy that was with me last year, the boy that was my boyfriend, the one that visit me to school, the one who went out with me, the one who chatted with me when i was in uk, the one who said i love you at the first time we met, and the one who has the same last name as mine, he is WJ. :') i can't move on boy, i don't know why, this is my first time being like this. maybe its because you're one of the kind i always wanted. (: